Please Go Away

I can feel it coming,
Its creeping up again,
My heart squeezes,
I just want my best friend.

I can't push it away,
I have no strength,
My faith is gone,
Just please go away.

I remember that night,
When you hugged my tight,
You said forever and forever,
It felt so right.

Three years later,
I still feel you here,
Your smile behind closed eyes,
You laugh whispering in my ear.

I can't decide,
Which road to take,
The dark or the light,
My heart it aches.

My head spins,
I hated you so much,
I wanted you dead,
Now I fall on my knee's.

Please just go away,
I need to be happy,
I need to be free.