A day in the life of me

I woke up this morning and nothing felt right,
I know in my heart that I’ll never be alright,

I try to shut my eyes hoping this feeling won’t stay,
So I get up get ready and try to face another day,

In all my classes I’m the one sitting alone,
But I’m in too much pain to survive on my own,

The people around me talk about going out,
I turn my music up to block them all out,

After school I go home to sit on my bed,
With no one to talk to I do nothing instead,

The pain that I’m feeling overflows on a knife,
As I resist the longing to give up my life,

I write on my arms with a knife so thin,
In a language that says how much pain I am in,

But when I’m with people I keep my arms covered,
Fearing my darkest of secrets will be discovered,

At night I go to sleep and nothing feels right,
Because in my heart I know I should be alright.