Wishing

I wish for all the life of me
That courage I possessed
For I’d adore the chance to tell you
How my heart so fills my chest
When this thing they call a slow burn
Wraps around my spine
While every word you’ve ever said
Is etched within my mind

But there’s something in the way
His eyes are cold and dark
That keeps me silent and detached
My feelings in my heart

I wish with every fibre that
I had strength to tell you no
When in the dark you come to me
And want to hold me close
Then you torture me and tease me
And you spend me till I’m dry
And when you’ve taken what you want
You leave me here to cry

But there’s something in the way
He whispers in my ear
Those words of adoration
That I so need to hear

I wish each night on every star
That passion I could feel
When you put your fingers on my skin
And ask if this is real
For what’s the point to wanting him
When I’m all I’ll ever be
And why should I indulge him
If a body’s all he’ll see

Yet there’s something in the way
They know what I dream of
That keeps me there and waiting for
A lie that we’ll call love