Focus

Ugh!
On my mind,
On my mind,
On my mind.
I give up,
Stand up,
Leave.
Teacher calls after me,
"Hey, what
Do you think
You're doing?"
I don't care.
Just keep
Walking.
Nothing can
Hold me down.
Leave the grounds
To do nothing but
Wander aimlessly
There's nothing there
For me
Anymore.
A drifting thought
Crossed my
Open mind.
Afaraway memory.
A girl
Blond hair
Crystal eyes
Shining smile
Chiming voice
And what she said.
"Even when I'm gone
I can't get away.
I can't focus
When I'm near you
Do you notice
Me at all?
I can't focus
When I hear you.
Do you notice
That I can't focus?"
Her face flushed deep pink
Like the color of
That one flower.
I look up and
See again
The way her eyes
Grew wider
By the second.
Shocked.
Amazed.
Surprised.
At what she said
And what I'd said
Back.
Hands whipped up
Over her mouth,
Covers the smile
Forming like a
Rapid storm.
She turned quickly
And rushed to her house
Across the streed.
Didn't ever see
The car
Speeding down the road.
Right in the middle.
Right
At
Her.
Both our lives
Ended that day,
I know.
And I remember
How I lost my
Focus.