The System Of A Lost Soul

I'm starting a new system
where I trust no one.
I'll keep my heart locked away,
and we'll see how long this system can stay.
I'll show no emotion in my eyes
except drowsiness
maybe even anger
but never resentment or love
Happiness NO WAY!
or hurt.
Never hurt.
To show and emotion doesn't work.
The system would all fall down.
I've been too vulnerable for too long now.
One day they will hurt me
as they have before
and once again I will mourn.
I will mourn for my happy silhouette the one who put herself
out there.
The one who couldn't realize
that they care only for themselves.
This life is nothing but a living hell.
A wasteland with great
actors and
actresses.
The ones who can put anything on show.
To say what you want to hear,
to pretend to comfort you.
When in their minds, they really don't like you.
They just want to make themselves feel good.
One day, they'll notice what I just did...
This is
a
tense
life
I
am
about
to
live
BUT
it
is
what
it
is.