Unknown explanations

Are you thinking?
Are you speaking?
Simply hearing without listening?
Turmoil over everything
Something out of nothing while turning something to nothing
Are you only going to watch I know what I'm doing?
Do you care?
Do you see all this?
All this I know is wrong, but I continue anyways
Label me a poser
Say I only want attention
Hide the truth dilute yourself it is your choice I guess
I really only want someone to talk to
Someone to maybe explain what’s really wrong
A new life is what I wanted I guess
No one knows me any more
A fresh start
My past is unknown I can be all new again
So why do I keep running back to everything I had struggled to drop and leave behind?