Part I: Raw

Sit.Click
Magnet charger

Pause, and then
The
Click, click, clicking
Of the mouse and the keyboard

Pause, pause
Click
Pressing play

Music, coming out
From the speakers
Raw voices, raw drums, raw guitars, basses, piano

His words
“Hey you caught me at a bad time”
Pause, typing in the other state
Words, raw, too raw

Heart racing
No
Heart
Pain
Stabbing

Worse
Double it, quadruple it, times infinity
January but a prick
No
Why?

Raw, raw, too fucking raw
The image
I can’t imagine

I ask again
Again
Again

No!
I won’t!
NO!
I won’t!

Deep breaths
Quickening
Faster
Faster
Faster!

My eyes
The world
The tingles
In my limbs, in my fingers

Shush now
Calm down
Slow breaths

Stop! Slow breaths!
Hold your breath
Shush now

Calm down
He’s gone
He’s gone

Help. Someone..
Someone help
Please help. Someone please.