Take Me Soon

You made me a little soldier
And made me stand up tall
And take what was coming
With my back against the wall.

I face you with no fear
And take your fist with ease
But inside I’m screaming
God, bring me mercy please

You send me to my room
And I shut and lock my door
I can hear you walking down the hall
As I lay on the floor.

I cry so hard there’s nothing left
Except an empty shell
I close my eyes and hold my breath
And succumb to this hell

I can’t force myself to move
My body’s bruised and hurt
I cringe when I see you
And the power you assert.

My mother just says nothing
And spits a curse my way
I don’t know how to bring myself
To face another day.

God I’m praying to You
So I hope that you can hear
Do you hear my sobbing?
My shaking from the fear?

God, please reach a hand down
And take me from this place
So I can take a walk with You
And see you face to face.

Let me say I love You
And I know this wasn’t planned
You didn’t want me hurting
From my own dad’s hand.

Just so You don’t worry,
Despite all this pain,
I never was mad at You,
You alone kept me sane.

I give my life to follow
And quietly obey
I’ll walk in Your foosteps,
I’ll follow Your way.

Please just don’t forget me
And the very shoes I’m in
Because I have this longing
And love for You within.

I don’t blame you for my hurt
Or follow You with shame
But Lord I need to hear soon
Your calling of my name.