Drug Dealer Can You Help Me Find This Piece of Me?

My heart descends. My heart explodes. I take one drag in and hope to God this one will make me forget you. I take another drag and hope it will help me forget every second i spent with you. I shove my hands in my pocket and try to walk it all off. Even with all of this smoke covering my heart i can still faintly feel it throbbing with the pain of your memory.

I'm keeping so many secrets from myself. There's so many things I could say to you. So many feelings I could profess. But I just leave everything behind in the back of my thoughts. Nothing really matters anymore. you left me. I'm alone. Now all I've got is this dead heart and these blows of smoke.

I take another drag and hope it's masking my true feelings. I loved you but you made me hate myself and everyone else around me. This hate runs deep in my blood along with this smoke.

So drug dealer can you give me something different? It's a little piece of metal that can finally help me shed something different than tears. All I want is the world to slow. All I wanted was him. All I wanted was a chance to be his. a chance for him to be mine