Without her

She's the only reason I live
And the reason I want to die
She's the only reason I smile
And why I break down and cry
She's the only thing I care about
And the only thing I need
She's the one that makes me feel so good
And the reason why I still bleed
It's not my fault I feel this way
I just wanted her to see
To stop and listen, to look and think
About the hold she has on me
It's the little things says or does
That brings me up.. or pulls me down
And she's the only one that determines
If I'll smile today or frown
She's why I want to wake up in the morning
And at night why I want to die
When I look in the mirror and start to think
And why I break down and cry
She has this way of doing things
She'll care so much.. then stop
And she stops when I least expect it
And then I feel my heart drop
And right at that very the moment
When I feel like I can't breathe
She comes back and says something stupid
But it's the only thing I need
And everything goes back
And it's like it never was
I don't know why she does it
It all happens "just because"
And all the things she never says
Still hurts me just as bad
As all the stupid shit he does
And really.. all it is, is sad..
Cause I don't know what I'd do without you
And maybe eventually it would be ok
And I don't want to even think about tomorrow
Without having you today...