For the one I have lost

I can't fake a smile any longer, i need you here with me.
I need to hold you close and I need to hear you breathe
Because the days that have passed and I no longer see your face
I have come to realize, the world is an ugly place.

I need to feel your touch, the warmth that you give.
And I need to see your eyes as you give me a grin.
And all i can do now is cry
And ask myself again why, you had to leave...and leave me here to die...
Don't you see that we miss you? Don't you see that we care?
Can't you tell that without you, life i can't even bare?

At least our last words were I love you, but i never got to say goodbye,
Now I have to visit a stone with your name on it to remember you by.
This feeling in my heart, which is there to stay,
Makes me scream so loud, you can't even understand the pain.
The tears i've cried, the blood I bleed,
Won't bring you back, back to me.

These words I have written were for you,
So you can feel a little of the pain i'm going through.
You were my everything and the light of my life
And then you were gone in the blink of an eye.

Did it hurt? Did you suffer? Did you cry? Were you in pain?
These are the questions that make me go insane
They will never be answered and I have to settle
With the fact that this is a battle I can't handle.

Every time I saw your face or anytime you looked my way
Peace invaded my body and made me stop feeling grey
You picked me up when I was down
And took care of me when no one was around

I scream without a care, I cry without reason
Sometimes I feel like I'm not a real person
Something's not right, I'm not doing well
Trying to forget you has been a living hell

I can't remember you, it hurts so much
To remember your smile, to remember your touch
Makes me want to cry right then and there
Because I've lost you forever.

I plead that you're at peace even though I want you here
I beg that you're safe even if it brings me tears
I hope that you will still take care of me
Because I can't stand the insanity

I love you, I miss you
I need you, I feel you
Time to say goodbye
Even if it makes me want to die