River
My second entry in this poetry contest.
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Go down to the river,
Just like I used to when I was young;
Need a place for my mind;
Not for rest, but somewhere that I can accept that little works the way you plan
But I'm still reminded of the beauty in life--
Simple things I do not question,
So much grace and everything I'm not
The train rumbles above me,
Just like it did when I was young,
Back then when everything started to change--
They lost me but I found myself
And when does the world make sense?
Just when I think I see truth, it's wrong;
Love and light aren't everything,
But they're everything in my heart
I'm walking down this trail I used to go on
And I'm alone but followed
By memories and something else,
But what, I do not know
Is it you beside me?
While I throw stones into the water
And wait for my next train of thought,
While looking at fool's gold
The bright lights only shine in the dark;
Tell me, do I see clear under the glare of the sun?
Everything else just distorts,
Blinding your eyes and blurring the pictures
If the heart falls in a forest,
Does it make a sound?
Because what I hear is uncertain,
But ears cannot be blocked by the clouds
I'm listening for the quiet voice I know is there,
I know it's there,
Within the loud
Where are the wings in the sky?
Not here today;
Where did they go hiding?
Are they trapped in a prison,
Or bound by someone's obligation?
I can hear the call, it's steady--
Steady and sure;
Something I wish I could be
What's the difference between feeling and thought?
Which matters most?
Is the echo just as important as the first?
Because I hear it again and again
It's not a cry for help,
Not a cry, not a cry,
But this time I need to cry
As the wind, it blows,
Just like the old times
But that's over
And I'm not really here
I don't know where I am;
Where to go, where to go?
If that's where I'm going,
Oh, I'll take the long way home
Did I used to?
I don't know,
I can't remember--
Everything's changed
But nothing's changed;
Only inside of me,
Only inside of me
I don't like home,
It never was,
So what is it now?
It's not then,
And I'm not even here;
I'm alone, I'm alone,
But what is behind me?
Not just my past;
It's not my future-- has it come and gone?
Something's gotta change to match up with what's inside
Or have I not tried hard enough?
All this time,
All this time wasted,
And life always goes on;
It's not for nothing,
All for nothing, right?
Tell me something,
Just something, will be revealed in time
And there's more, always more;
I'm ready and waiting,
Sitting here hiding again
That shell has never changed
Ever since I used to come to the river when I was young,
All alone with the fool's gold-
Does that make me a fool?
And where's the silver?
Can't have one without the other
Where were you when I was at the river?
All alone until I was found,
But I went back,
It wasn't the same--
That's what changed
I got lost but you found me in another way
And now you're here but it's silent,
And here I cry under the glare of the sunlight;
I don't feel ready, ready to fly
But if your wings are grown,
Don't wait for me;
I'll follow you someday,
Just like I always have
You know that's never changed
And I shouldn't ask you, ask you to stay
When you should be looking for something more than fool's gold;
But I don't want to be alone, not alone, not alone--
Not here
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Go down to the river,
Just like I used to when I was young;
Need a place for my mind;
Not for rest, but somewhere that I can accept that little works the way you plan
But I'm still reminded of the beauty in life--
Simple things I do not question,
So much grace and everything I'm not
The train rumbles above me,
Just like it did when I was young,
Back then when everything started to change--
They lost me but I found myself
And when does the world make sense?
Just when I think I see truth, it's wrong;
Love and light aren't everything,
But they're everything in my heart
I'm walking down this trail I used to go on
And I'm alone but followed
By memories and something else,
But what, I do not know
Is it you beside me?
While I throw stones into the water
And wait for my next train of thought,
While looking at fool's gold
The bright lights only shine in the dark;
Tell me, do I see clear under the glare of the sun?
Everything else just distorts,
Blinding your eyes and blurring the pictures
If the heart falls in a forest,
Does it make a sound?
Because what I hear is uncertain,
But ears cannot be blocked by the clouds
I'm listening for the quiet voice I know is there,
I know it's there,
Within the loud
Where are the wings in the sky?
Not here today;
Where did they go hiding?
Are they trapped in a prison,
Or bound by someone's obligation?
I can hear the call, it's steady--
Steady and sure;
Something I wish I could be
What's the difference between feeling and thought?
Which matters most?
Is the echo just as important as the first?
Because I hear it again and again
It's not a cry for help,
Not a cry, not a cry,
But this time I need to cry
As the wind, it blows,
Just like the old times
But that's over
And I'm not really here
I don't know where I am;
Where to go, where to go?
If that's where I'm going,
Oh, I'll take the long way home
Did I used to?
I don't know,
I can't remember--
Everything's changed
But nothing's changed;
Only inside of me,
Only inside of me
I don't like home,
It never was,
So what is it now?
It's not then,
And I'm not even here;
I'm alone, I'm alone,
But what is behind me?
Not just my past;
It's not my future-- has it come and gone?
Something's gotta change to match up with what's inside
Or have I not tried hard enough?
All this time,
All this time wasted,
And life always goes on;
It's not for nothing,
All for nothing, right?
Tell me something,
Just something, will be revealed in time
And there's more, always more;
I'm ready and waiting,
Sitting here hiding again
That shell has never changed
Ever since I used to come to the river when I was young,
All alone with the fool's gold-
Does that make me a fool?
And where's the silver?
Can't have one without the other
Where were you when I was at the river?
All alone until I was found,
But I went back,
It wasn't the same--
That's what changed
I got lost but you found me in another way
And now you're here but it's silent,
And here I cry under the glare of the sunlight;
I don't feel ready, ready to fly
But if your wings are grown,
Don't wait for me;
I'll follow you someday,
Just like I always have
You know that's never changed
And I shouldn't ask you, ask you to stay
When you should be looking for something more than fool's gold;
But I don't want to be alone, not alone, not alone--
Not here