I stand by you, with a lie.

Nobody feels what i do,
only i do
nobody knows what its like to be me,
my knuckles bleed
my eyes poor out tear after tear,
and i blame you,
nobody feels the anger i do,
they have no clue,
i have so much i want to tell you,
but just cant
for if i do
you shell hate me more,
i need you,
but don't want you,
should i drop out?
or move out?
Become my brother?
Think my life is great,
or should i become what my father tells me i will be,
a welfare bum,
Are you doing something wrong,
yes keeping me from growing up,
freedom is the word, something
i want and need,
but will i ever get it
NOPE,
no trust
you wonder why you cannot trust me
when i leave i don't wanna come back,
for if i do i loose the battle,
so why argue and fight,
might as well get the freedom i want,
by walking away,
there is no need for cops,
just the freedom i ask for,
i see others,
they get what they want,
and i never do,
so what if I'm immature,
the only reason why is,
you keep me from making the wrong decisions,
and the right ones,
By keeping me behind closed doors,
so many things i have to tell you,
I'm bisexual,
my life is messed up,
my feelings hurt,
I smoke, but cant cause you don't know,
so many times i wanted to date a girl,
but can't cause you just wont accept me for me,
So i lay awake at night
crying my eyes out, wishing you knew.