After

Scared
Waiting
Lying behind those eternal eyes

An opportunity unthinkable
Happening
Gone and past
So quickly

Everything is normal again
As thoughts of the days before
Circle around
And around
And around

Everything is normal again
Yet the hope is there
Desperately
That this is a lie

That what happened
What came out of
Thoughts buried so deep
Words
Finally making it to the air
Changed something

Never thinking the chance
Would come again
Jumping into dark waters
Exhilarated

And now
After
Staring at the wall
Dread creeps

This has happened before
Before the risk
Way back
And eventually
The radio fell silent
Despite all hopes

Now
All there is left
Is waiting
Gazing into a once again
Empty life
Hoping for something
Anything
To show that life will
Never be the same

Closing eyes
The memories come
Knowing how you feel
The other side of the story
Unknown

If things fall back to the same
The thought makes
Limbs tremble
And still
All there is left is
Waiting

Knowing all possible
Was done
That it’s uncontrollable now
Scares
Remembering what happened
Before
Because now
The only thing left is

Waiting

Watching the morning sun
Creep by
In a silent house