Lights of Rapture

I thought you did
Did so last year
I was torn and ripped
Slightly anxious in fear
You popped out in my face
With that figure in base

Lights of rapture
Shine through the gaping hole
Lights of rapture
I don't care
Not a single glance
Just to see you
And here I'm alone

I wish for heart and love
But you give me tears
Feels like being shoved
To lightless darkness
Was it a mistake?
What is your fault?
What did I do wrong?
Oh, tell me, oh, tell me
Let me know

Lights of rapture
Shine through the gaping hole
Lights of rapture
I don't care
Not a single glance
Just to see you
And here I'm alone

You said I like you
and kicked me to the ground
You shouted I hate you
and pulled me for a hug
Should I believe
Or should I leave?