A Missing Piece

I blew out the candles on another yearly day thanksgiving
a birthday i wish would go away
missing a piece frozen in time
i want my mom back all the time
little rebekka crawling on my lap i dont ever want to go back
19 candles is all i see
as these memories rush through me
the orange of my cigarette flys around me
the one ive missed so much
is barely around me
heaven sent angels so where art thou i ask
to drain away sickness all that they do is cause me hell
promises turn old and fairy tales turn dull
opening up a book never her hand to hold
i feel sold into a world where children learn alone
a teen without a home
not a tree to climb
or a swinging vine everythings the same as its ever been
i wonder was the mom i knew a dream or a figment
her perfume lingers on the tip of my tounge
mother is the one who should be there when you fall
instead i tought myself alone how to crawl
not one of the best ways i could label what i miss
walking around stoned an empty head waiting for the right
kiss
could clouds be her face and the wind be her song
could the grass be her holding me when im lost and gone
tears turn to jello i really dont understand what i see
only that since i was little ive had nobody except for me
i blow out the candles on another yearly day
begging on my knees for that one emptiness to go away
and i sway in and out of what life truly means
that i miss your hugs and smiles
so please mom come back to me
PLEASE