To Whom-So-Ever it May Concern

Whom-so-ever it may concern-

How am I supposed to tell you what I need to say?
For, I know that the second I do, is the moment you run away.
Being near you is the closest my tummy has been to butterflies,
But I'm nothing but an acquaintance, a silly girl in your eyes.
I'm embarrassed to admit it, I REALLY hate to do so,
But I feel something for you, and I keep telling myself, "No!"
I promised myself, over a boy, I would never waste my tears,
but its close now, so close now, I'm realizing my fears.
I'm scared that when you run from me, I my heart will shutter and fall,
But I want to tell you, I just don't know when, that's my biggest problem of all.
When I'm strong enough perhaps? Do you think I'll ever be?
I doubt it, I mean, really? That's seriously hard to believe.
So maybe I'll just suffer through, and take on all the pain.
Perhaps, if I'm lucky, it will eventually wash away with the rain.
So then, I guess I know now, as your name flashes on my screen.
I HATE how just three letters cause such a smile, I could scream!
I'm not one who believes in love, though I feel you could change my mind.
If only you actually cared, if you'd even spare the time.
But I guess you'll never know, if I'm never strong enough to tell you,
And here I stand, my heart dreading, what I'm about to do.
My hands begin to tremble, and still a few more salty tears slip by.
I'll tell you now, and then you'll run. So, I guess that it's good-bye.

Sincerely,
Me