Hating Myself

You pick me up and put me down
I’m stupid letting you mess me around
I’m done with being a quiet little girl
I wanna be loud and shout it to the world
How you’re nothing but a jerk
And nothing but a loser
A lot of girls would call you an abuser
Messing me around to make yourself tall
Someday you’ll hit into a wall
There will be a girl who won’t fall for the smile
I’m sorry I couldn’t be her
Sorry I was part of your discarded pile
I hate what you turned me into
I’m sorry for everything you made me do
Angry at the tears I willingly shed
Annoyed at my constant feeling of dread
Stupid to fall down to the pain
Upset that I believed the lies again and again
But it made me a little wiser
It gave me the strength to stand up tall
Funny how your making me hate myself
Didn’t really hurt me at all!