Rut

“I really hate a day to day life,
Where people paint ‘yourself ’,
And they don’t even know the ‘you,’
Stop portraying: a shelf.

“I’d prefer it if you were nice,
Although that won’t occur,
I still hope for my own damn sake,
That you fucking concur.

“Take a note about me and you,
Perhaps you can get it,
That I have been through way too much,
To keep taking this shit.

“I could never take your good life,
Not even another,
I love someone exceedingly,
I can’t explain further.

“So I’m just going for it,
I’ll walk in – I’ll walk out,
I am not going to make it,
And that’s without a doubt.

“A girl doesn’t want a guy like me,
They want guys who are crude,
Fucked in life – fucked in general,
We’re all pretty much screwed.

“Give me a breather – I need space,
I’m fixing this lifetime.”
I say to an enemy,
Singing a sing-song rhyme.

He stares at me with his blank gaze,
Saying back, “I don’t care,”
I look up at him - my eyes tearing,
“You are stuck – Find out where.”