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As I'm Smiling
On The Inside I'm Dying
Some Of You May Have Heard This Before
But it's scarily true

My fingers are numb
and my breatheing is shallow

The mirror decieves me
I do not think it's really me

Low self esteem
will never make me queen
of wherever I want to be

It's more than black clothes
and nail polish
to show that I am not a copy
that I am my own

Believing without seeing
takes alot of energy
but is worth every second and every penny
on prayer candles
and things to show me He's real

Mostly full of happy energy
but the times full of sadness and pain
are the most difficult

A love he will never know
paints itself over my heart
painting it red and pink
making my heart beat faster when I think of you
but then slowing when I know you'll
never
feel
the
same
for
me

My life is like a box of chocolates
I never know whats coming
but will hold no regrets after following my dreams

Thats
Just
Me