I Wont Die Here

I Wont Die Here:

i dry my eyes every night
this happens after every fight
i know the pain will never seize
even when im on my knees

i've been beaten til i've turned blue
no one knows what i go through
why does he drink everyday
i sometimes wish his life away

he brings me so much pain
at times i want to slice my vein
and after all the bleedings done
i think to my self, who has won

it would be me standing there
fighting off my biggest fear
i wont give him anything to hold
its my life and i'm in control

i see no other reason to live
my life is all i have to give
im not ready to give it up
even with the label of the slut

even with the pain i had
my life has never seemed so bad
if good is all my future will see
then a better life i would lead

friends made things better for me
so now a better friend i will be
im ready to open up this new door
i swear i wont be giving up anymore

everyone i loved i made them worry
and now for that im so very sorry
i wont ever live my life a lie
and because of this im not ready to die