Pained

My world is turned upside down
From time to time and now
I don't know what to do
With myself
Anymore

My core is telling me to go out
But I doubt it

I wanna stay pained
It's the only I've known
Right down to the bone

Some part of me tries to shake it off
But I just come back
To place I know
But don't fully understand

And man
I don't know what I want
I don't know who to be
Or if who I'm showing is even me
But what I do know
Is that I don't need to impress anyone!