nightmare?

I’m stuck in my dreams.
They dance around me,
Taunting, mocking,
Challenging me.
They’ve realized that
I need them.
My dreams are all
That
Keep
Me
Sane.
The real world scares me.
I am horrified at
The images that play
Constantly
Showing me what I
Must wake up to.
In the back of my
Unsettling mind,
Locked and bound by heavy
Steel chains-
My dreams lay dormant,
Though they are never forgotten.
I cherish them.
They are more precious to me
Than this god forsaken life.
I am safe in the world I’ve
Created.
I am happy. It is truly
Extraordinary.
In the midst of my sanctuary,
Hiding in the shadows,
I know it lurks,
Claws enlarged,
Fangs ready to clutch my sanity
By the throat.
Kicking and screaming,
Blood curdling shrieks.
Reality demands I obey,
For my rebellion fails,
And I am locked in its shackles
Once
Again.
My screams weren’t heard.
Even if they were,
No-one
Dares
Defy
What’s real.
How can one fight
This beast with a
Strong will alone?
The desire to dream forever
Was never enough.
I was fooling myself.
These happy endings
I’ve willed into existence,
The one’s I’ve kept living,
I’ve modified and evolved them
So many times.
They have been obedient
And followed my every
command.
But Reality always strikes
Killing everything I’ve made.
So I can only watch,
As my world becomes but
Bloody,
Unfixable,
Despairing
Shreds.
My tears clouding my vision,
Though I am happy they
Cover the truth.
All dreams are lies.
Always have been
Always will be.
Dying and leaving me with
Open wounds.
It is unbearable,
But at the end of it all
I manage to survive.
My dreams lay dead
Before me, the hope
Left their eyes, mind
Soon following.
Has it always been this
Cruel?
Have I felt this pain before?
I
Cannot
Remember.
It has finally begun
To fade.
My worst fear is
Real.
I have not the strength
To grasp them any longer.
Everything I built and crafted
To pacify myself…
Gone
In a moment.
I watch the last one
Face the beast of my
Nightmares.
Reality has come to
Finish
What he
Started.
My body frozen as he
Devours the last one.
His evil eyes the only
Light in the dark.
He’s finally won.
He has crushed me.
After all this time,
My strong will to hang on
Is long gone.
I have nothing left.
He has taken it all,
Leaving me.
I can only
Gape.
I hardly notice
His charging.
He has me,
And he knows it.
Just as he lunges,
Claws out and teeth bared,
I cringe, the pain unreal,
My eyes open…