The Killing Lights

A Favor asked,
Was a love lost
I thought I could trust you
But now you leave me
Leave me with and an urge to cut veins
And bleed to death
I think I’m hurting myself
More than you’re hurting me
I’m cutting in pain
Your words in my blood
I thought you were everything
My everything
Everything I wanted,
Everything I could ask for.
But then you left me
Broken and confused
And there isn’t a day that passes that I don’t think of you
I’m convinced you’re killing me
Killing me inside
You’re tearing me apart.
Even If I am over you.
No matter what happens, I think of you
How you hurt me
How you’re killing me
How I trusted you
How I loved you
My feelings of Love for you aren’t completely gone,
And the wounds haven’t healed
They are going to be long and harsh as they disappear
But they will go and you will be nothing but a weak memory in my head
My mind will always remember you
But, my heart will never love you the way it did before.
I just asked you for one thing
And it was to say
“I love you.”
But I guess that was too much for you.
Nobody else will love you like I did.
I guarantee it
But you will probably never believe me when I say
I thought I loved you
I thought I could trust you
And all you did was kill me
I want you to know, so badly,
How much I went through.
Am going through
And will go through
So Listen to me,
Just for once
When I tell you
I still love you
Even If my heart doesn’t.