for real

the pain of the rolling eyes
tears running down
why can't i run fast enough
the luaghs and words get louder,
i can't take it

i want to die
i'll stay alive if you do
what
you don't care
i thought...
our baby...
my wrists
the lies

was this you
before
me
baby
wrists
hospital
can't end
want to die

mom don't come in
i'll clean up
stop crying
i'm standing right here
tell her dad
why won't you answer me

what am i grounded
twenty feet below
how did this happen
it was one
all that blood
the hospital
the record

the stares
blood
him
will you stay with me
don't leave
never come back

you'll see
i'll be back
but i can't
come on mom don't cry
it's not your fault
it's mine

SHUT UP
stop crying
you stupid baby
dead
alive
confused

i look alive
you won't look at me
under the ground
handing me a bottle
now throwing flowers at my grave

won't you stay alive with me
i can't see you
the light went out
turn it on
is this you
not you then who

my future
my live
you
mom
dad??
don't leave me

you can go
i don't care
forget
but...
baby
don't you love mommy
i did this for you
don't cry

i'm holding you now
i'm coming
wait
don't run
no i'm mommy
come back
i love you

i do
why won't you
come back
i need you
your mine
but i'm dead
alive
dead
alive
dead inside
alive outside

won't you stay alive with me?
my baby