Heart's Winter

If I can make it on my own
I’m cold and bitter
If I say I need a hand
I can’t survive the winter
I want to be fearless
But the fear of love is grave
Deeply embedded is the fear
Of needing to be saved
I don’t want a crutch
Just a shoulder to sleep on
I was built as a whole
Yet I continue to keep on
Searching, searching, searching
Searching for someone

The promise of affection
Is bait for sad fools
Independence alone
Makes a sweet girl a tool
I want a hand to hold
For all the wrong reasons
I think my heart is too weak
For this empty, chilling season
I know I need to grow
For my naivete is great
But this world is made for pairs
What a twisted, lovely fate
So I’ll keep calling out and searching
Crying, screaming, hoping for someone

I’ve got a face in mind
And a hand just out of reach
This must be nature’s taunt
What a cruel lesson for her to teach
My smiles are hidden
For fear that I’ll be caught
And criticized for wishful thinking
What a strange thing life has taught
I’m on my way to who knows where
I’m lonely with or without him
As I have learned the hardest way…

Damn, I’m still desperately hoping
He’ll come around