Ecstasy

Band of rubber gone missing
I scrammble, I need something
Dad's old tie
Tie it tight
But not too tight

Vein pulses, bulges
I can see it through the skin
Scars protrude
Marks from past encounters
Another one will join them soon

Needle point shimmers
My body shivers
Shaking with anticipation
Gotta get that fix

Razor sharp,
Pin-prick against my skin.
Embedds.
Sinks in, contact with my vein.

I inject,
The venom sinks into my veins-
Antidote to my pain.

Ecstasy.
I breathe.
I sigh.

Eyes flutter closed,
needle pulls out.
I can feel.
I am alive.
and I forget.