i'm not okay

It’s hard to say that I’m okay
In this sick, twisted world
Seeking for an answer why
But only end up with another question

I wonder what the future holds,
For someone as reckless as me
I often fail at everything I do
And I often say things that I don’t mean

I search for a new beginning
In this life I’m hardly living.
To only end up losing the one I love
And slowly drift away from everything else.

My love starts to fade
As the face of a person I once knew
Again I miss the danger sign
And continues to be blind

Without another doubt
And another shaken route
I begin to see
All I end up with is me.

It’s hard to say I’m okay
When I’m really not
Everyone can see I’m not okay
So, there’s no more pretending.