Lonely in the Shadows

Countless counting for the time,
That he will look into my eyes.
Hopeless hoping for the day,
When he will finally glance my way.

Different kinds of beauty,
None as powering as hers.
Different kinds of deadly,
I know which one that he prefers.

Joking with my enemies,
I dare to cross the line.
Try to fit in, trying to please,
Chasing after what I thought was mine.

Sitting in the darkened corner,
I'll never see his light.
Crying softly by myself,
Kept awake by all the fights.

Her tears glisten as they slip down her cheeks,
Grabbing attention like the diamonds she wears,
But my silent suffering goes unnoticed,
I fear that nobody even cares.

Perched amoung the dying,
I watch and wait until she leaves.
But I'm getting tired of all this lying,
Sometimes I wish I'd give up trying.

He could be my only comfort,
His attention is all that I need,
But I'm choking on all of the effort,
Of making myself bleed.