Yet Here It Is Again

It’s all coming back again to get me.
The thoughts, the dreams, the speechless days, the sleepless nights.
This nightmare is once again coming to life.

It hasn’t even been half a year since the first occurrence.
I’m still not fully over it.
Yet here it is again.

I know it’s bad.
I just can’t resist it.
I’m still too weak.

This time I can’t tell anyone.
This time it’s all my nightmare to try and survive.
My sister can’t even be a part of it.

It’s killing me inside.
This time I’m lying to everyone.
This time it’s supposedly all my fault.