-cry-

i think that i should be crying right now
i have forgotten what sadness feels like though
i don't really want to continue with your shit
i know that i have to in some way though
i want to just stay asleep all the time
i never dream by the way
the blankness is just so peaceful
i wish that it would stay

i got so bored that i read some slash
i thought it wasn't very well written
but you could tell that the writer was really into it

i cant decide what the fuck to do with my stuff like that
i seem to be good at it somehow
but i just don't know how to get who i really want

i think that i will take away the biggest part of you
i have no idea what you want me to do
i don't think that i will ever want it to change like you do
i know that i you will miss me more than i will
i want to hurt you really fucking badly
i never want to hurt you though
the things that hurt you are just who i cant stop thinking about
i wish that i still could feel the way i need to get your heart to stay