Masked-Pain... (What Are This Feeelings?)

What Are This Feelings?

I Met You Online...
You Added Me.....
And I Said "Hi" To You...
You Replied With A "Hey"
And That's How We Became Friends....
We Nick-Named Each Other....
I Called You My "Big Buddy"....
And You Called Me Your "Lil Pal"....

You Helped Me With My Depression...
You Comforted Me Like Nobody Else Could....

You Helped Me Feel Happiness, Comfort, And Something Else...

When We Fought Our First Fight...
My Body Shook...
And My Heart Pounded So Loudly...
Just Thinking I Might Loose You...
It Made Me Want To Cry....
And Cut Myself To A Bloody Mess....

And When We Made Up....
It Made Me Feel So Happy
The Happiest I've Been In Years...

Now I Wonder...
What Kind Feelings I Have For You?

I Have Not Felt It Before....
I'm Not Sure On What This Feeling Is...
But... I Do Know That.....
My Heart Hurts When I See You With Your Girlfriend....
Making Me Want, What's Not Mine....

And When You And Her Fought....
Seeing Your Pained-Face.....
Made Me Feel Your Sadness And Anger....
It Made Me Want To Comfort You...
To Cheer You Up...
To Make You Smile....

And When You Forgave Her...
It Made Me Feel Both Happy And Jealous...
Happy Because You Were Smiling And Laughing Again...
And Jealous.... 'Cause I Wanted To Be The One You Were Smiling And Laughing With.....

What Are This Feelings?
I Don't Have The Answers Right Now But....
I Will Find Them One Day....
Now All I Truly Want Is.....
Your Happiness.....
You Always Smiling...
Laughing....

And If She Makes You Happy Then....
I'm Happy.....
If It Means Hiding Behind My Masked-Pain From You Then So Be It....
If It Helps You Be Happy....