I Know You Said to Just Relax & Think Positively

I know you said to just relax & think positively,
But my heart is skipping beats so irregularly
That my blood has stopped & started too many times
And now my head feels too light.

All morning I walked with a clouded head,
And I kept staring at the clock, not my work, instead.
I counted down until I knew you'd be under the medicine,
And from there I counted the minutes until I got a message.

Even though you were okay, now, you had a slight fall,
And I swear I'd never been able to hear my own heart stall,
Breathing demoted to shaky inhales of pain,
Then worry as I eagerly prayed.

I know you're okay, baby, I just hate that sensation of loosing.
The one where I realize how fragile we are as humans,
Where i have to come to terms that bad things happen to amazing people,
And where I learn just how badly I need you to be my church steeple.

I need to see you, right now, right here,
And I need to see you're eyes take in my frozen tear.
This is how scared I get when you get hurt, when you're broken;
I am reduced to trembling and heart-breaking moans.

Please, baby, I know you can't read this,
But maybe in thinking about you you will experience it:
My love for you...God, it's more than I could ever explain,
But I will do so for the rest of our days.