Watch The World

I ruined your night cause I forget I was there
I forgot I was still alive and then
I ruined your night cause all I wanted was to be alone
To feel alone

And you tried to talk to me, ask me what was wrong
All I wanted was to watch you dance along
To the song on the radio playing itself back
And you waited for me to react
But that’s not what I wanted

I wanted to watch this room like I wasn’t there
To sit like a ghost in this chair
But You didn’t know what I wanted so you reached out
You didn’t know what I wanted so you screamed out

And you told me to stay inside, but I didn’t listen
I never listen
By the time you came around I was already smitten
Always so smitten
With the idea of walking myself back
Just to watch the cars pass me like I was nothing important

I locked the bathroom door
And fumbled with the drain
Trying to take a bath
It gave me trouble cause
It’s been so long since I’ve done that

You were scared cause you thought I was ending my time
But I was simply stopping my time
Pausing my time
But the sound of season’s first storm told me I was still alive
And kept so warm by the water, I wanted to be cold in the storm
I wanted o be in the storm, that’s all

The page was wrinkled from my damp forearm
My legs still loose from the warm water
My hair still drimping down on my bed sheet
While I wrote this down on my knees
Hoping
That you don’t worry about me tonight
You don’t think about me tonight
Cause I just want to watch the world tonight

*A'sN*:Free verse about my night tonight. Really messy at the moment but I'll fix it up later. Hoping I could bend this into a really great song.