Sucked Into My Vortex

There’s a weight on my chest
And I can’t breathe again
There’s a cloud hanging over me
And I can’t see
The light is being sucked into my vortex of depression
And I feel as if there’s no future
If misery is the only time I can feel
Then I wish my life could fast-forward to the day
That I hit climax, and finally take things into my own hands

Could you give me a piece of rope?
So that I can hang myself
And die
I’d rather not be at all if this is all life has for me
Would you mind buying me some drugs?
So that I can forget about all the mistakes I made
If I’m really lucky I might overdose
Wouldn’t you all like that?

This empty isn’t what I had in mind
I’m sure the solitude in death is better
After all I’m just the dark spot in your life
The unwanted stain on your perfect new outfit
I pushed myself so far I ended up forgetting who I was
And I’m so sick and tired of my existence
That I’ll cut myself to smithereens, just for something to do

I’m just a worthless piece of meat
If I ate grass
Maybe you could make a fine meal out of me
Dismembered and abused
Naked and humiliated
I’d hit rock bottom,
Served up on your plate for dinner
And you’d all enjoy every delicious
Minute of it