WHAT'D I DO?

That’s what I want to know.
What’d I do
To deserve you?
You may think this sounds…
Wrong.
Mean?
Probably.

But it’s not.
It’s anything but.
But you’ve left me screaming,
Left me unbalanced and hurt.
Screaming for razors,
And kisses,
And love.
Screaming for Jack
And hardcore painkillers.

But tell me this.
What’d I do?
Did I do it all wrong?
Did I live it wrong?
Again?
And again?

What do you say
When all you want to do,
Is curl up
And die
Slowly.
Feel life’s thread
Snap in your hands?

You say nothing.

What’d I do
To deserve shit?
To deserve nothing but kind words
That mean nothing.

Wind blurs through tree branches.
Once dead,
Now green and blooming.
Has it been that long?
Have we hurt this long?

You say you’re scared.
Why??
I’m here to make you grow,
Not make you shrink back
Into a lonely hole!
That’s what best friends do.
Don’t you think so?

Just tell me.
I’m not afraid to tell you
The shit that goes on.
(Most of the time.)
You can tell me.

So what’d I do?
What’d I do to deserve you?
And if this is meant to be mean?
Well, I’m not so sure.
Was it karma?
Was it fate?

Whatever it was,
Whatever it still is…
Well, don’t worry,
Doll.
I’ll be there for you.