So Confused

It began so wonderfully
it was a joy at first
The way we looked at each other lovingly
and to know what we wouldn't be cursed

Your touch on my skin felt so surreal
like the the graze of the warm summer wind
The thought that you'd be mine was so unreal
To me you were ever so kind

I felt so warm and whole in your arms
Nothing could steal this smile from my face
I fell victim to all of your silly charms
and then you vanished without a trace

I was so lonely
so scared to be alone
I lost my one and only
I was left with pain all on my own

Then you returned again
I reached out for you
I no longer had to be insane
I didn't even have a clue

It hurt so much to see you with him
I thought you loved me
This ending would be grim
Like drinking poison in my tea

It hurts so much just to see you
Knowing nothing I do can change this
I watched as the love began to grow
You were sucked into his bliss

I'm left alone like before
Closing myself in
becoming bruised and sore
thinking about what could have been