My Drug, My Mistake

You’re like a fucking drug I need

The further you go away, the

More I need you

You’re my drug and yet you’re

My mistake too

I never noticed until we had

Been taken away from each other,

But my life lies in ruins because of us

What have I let happen to me?

This is not who I am

This is not suppose to happen to me

My heart should not ache for

The mistake I let go of, yet

It beats in time with the ache that I feel

It’s kind of funny how it hurts, but

Maybe I have lost my mind over

Our time apart

Is this my obsession?

Has this love for you become an obsession

Because I loved you for so long and truly meant

That I loved you when I said it to you?

This is so wrong for me!

I shouldn’t be feeling this way about anyone, yet

Somehow you snared me into your trap of

Sweet, loving, and caring words, but

What the hell is this ache I feel?

It shouldn’t be this way

I shouldn’t feel for you anymore

You were a mistaking accident that I fell for!

A.M.H.
4/16/07