Close My Eyes and Button my Lips

They all look at me,
Wide eyes, open mouths.
I suppose, I brought it on myself
Didn't listen, didn't obey.
They ask me “Why are you so difficult”
Don't they realize, so are they?
I don't answer their uncertain eyes,
I don't answer their invading questions.

They think I'm brain washed or under a spell
I say no different, I say nothing.
What should I say? I love him?
He makes me happy?
No, they wouldn't understand.
So I close my eyes and button my lips,
So I close my mouth and block the tears.

I knew they would find out,
I knew they would judge,
But, I just assumed they'd still love me.
I was wrong, so very, deadly wrong.
They shout at me and I hide inside a shell,
I feel it gnawing at my chest,
I feel it growing inside my head.

Where is he? He promised!
When he held me in his arms,
He whispered into my ear,
He told me he loved me.
He told me he'd always be near.
And then a shout, a scream, a cry.
I look up and through tear filled eyes,
I see him, dishevelled and worried.
Suddenly, I'm in his arms, covered by his smell,
He whispers he still loves me and removes my fears,
He whispers apologies for not being here.

We had confirmed their biggest fears,
I was in love with a poor, Weasley boy,
I was out of their control, he had 'corrupted' me.
I saw my father's anger and my mothers tears
I ignore them and look at him
They give me a look of sorrow
They give me a look of fear.

Because I fell in love with him, I was no longer theirs.