I was never ...

I’ve never been one for pretending,
Not one to hold on to things that are ending,
I know that’s it not only pride I’m defending,
But also my broken heart that’s so slowly mending.

I’ve never been one for playing games,
No one to lie with the things she proclaims,
I know that I never really meant all those hateful names,
But I’ve always been the one that everyone blames.

I’ve never been one to lie to your face,
Not one to say I never needed some space,
I know that in your eyes I may be a disgrace,
But I have all this pain inside me you can’t erase.

I’ve never been one to be so fake,
Not one to cover up something even for your sake,
I know that everything I ever do is a big mistake,
But I get rid of this yearning ache.

I was never one refuse my fate,
Not one to confuse my love with hate,
I know that you won’t ever relate,
But I was forced to carry the world and its weight.