A Smile to Die For

She came into my life
As low as she could be
I took her from the knife
And opened her eyes so she could see.

I helped her through heartbreaks
I helped her through fights
I hold her every time her body shakes
And I told never gave her a smite

I wiped away her tears
as she cried into my shirt
Then it became so clear
That I can take away her hurt

I opened up to her
letting inside my mind
giving her more of my heart
each and every time

She told me that she loved me
That she would never pass me up
Never hurt my heart
I realize now it was a lie

I sit in my own sorrow
Afraid to tell her why
I have her heart to barrow
Until it is stolen by the same guy

Do I dare let her in again
Do I dare tell her why
I don't know how or when
But i want to make her smile

I live for her happiness
its the only thing making me whole
It takes away my sadness
But yet it pecks at me like a crow

I will forever just be the one
to talk to and be used
I just want to take this gun
and blow out it all on cue

As i slowly slide away
into the darkness and the void itself
I realize that I'm not okay
and decide to jump in myself