I Guess And I Thought

I thought I was over this
I thought I was over this dark
Horrible empty feeling

I guess I wasn’t because
I still cry myself to sleep
I still can’t be myself
I still can’t speak my mind

I thought I was truly happy
I thought I was being real with my self
I thought I found my comfort join

I guess I wasn’t happy
I guess I wasn’t, I was just as a fake Barbie doll
I guess I didn’t because I’m still scared

How come this horrible feeling
Won’t go away?
Why won’t this horrible feeling
Go away?
Why is this happening to me?

I guess and I though I was
Happy and free to be me

I don’t want to be this way
But, I guess I am.