HELP ME GET THROUGH THIS UNHOLY DISEASE
I NEVER THOUGHT THAT IT COULD BE THIS WAY
FOREVER I FEEL MY HEART CAN SWAY
BACK AND FORTH BETWEEN THE EDGES INSIDE
FOREVER BREAKING WHAT WAS ONCE ENTWINED
I FALL AND BREAK AWAY THE CHAINS THAT HAVE BOUND ME THUS
MY MEMORIES FADE FROM THE DAYS FROM WHENCE IT WAS
I FIND NOTHING TO HOLD ON TO ANYMORE
BUT SOMETHING COMES AROUND AND OPENS A DOOR
A NEW FACE, COURAGE TO FIGHT THE FATE THAT HAS BEFALLEN ON ME
A NEW PACE, LIFE TENDS TO THROW AWAY WHAT I WANTED TO SEE
AND I SAY, THAT I NEED SOMETHING OR SOMEONE TO MAKE THIS RIGHT
THE SAME PLACE, THAT BRINGS BACK EVERYTHING IN PLAIN SIGHT
I FIGHT AND FIGHT UNTIL THE PAINS FADES AWAY
BUT I SEE A FACE AND IN MY ENSUES A PLAY
A MEMORY THAT I THOUGHT WAS LONG GONE
BUT INSTEAD IT FINDS ITS WAY, I'M A PAWN
I FIND A TASK THAT FOLLOWS
THROUGH AND THROUGH IT SWALLOWS
BUT IT FAILS AT EVERY WRONG TURN I MAKE
AGAIN AND AGAIN I PROCRASTINATE
I FAIL AT THE HEART AND MIND
WHEN IT ACHES IT ALWAYS TENDS TO FIND
THE PAIN IT FOLLOWS ALL THE TIME
AND I FIND MYSELF IN AN ENDLESS RHYME
TRYING TO MAKE SENSE OF EVERYTHING
CONFUSION INSIDE WHEN I TRY TO FIND SOMETHING
WORTHY ENOUGH TO MAKE IT MY OWN
AGAIN I HEAR ANOTHER PHONE
RINGING AND RINGING I CAN'T FIND NO END
THE WORLD TRYING TO BE MY FRIEND
WHEN I NEED JUST ONE PERSON IN MY HEART
SOMEONE WHO KNOWS HOW TO NOT TAKE IT APART
I WANT A LOVE THAT CAN LAST FOREVER
SOMETHING TO MAKE ME FEEL LIGHT AS A FEATHER
MAKE MY MIND NOT HAVE TO WORRY
ABOUT THE THINGS THAT MAKE FEEL LIKE FLEA
SOMEONE TRYING EVER SO HARD
TO MAKE SOMETHING OUT OF NOTHING LIKE A HORRIBLE BARD
I FEEL LIKE I'M NOT EVEN WORTHY ENOUGH
I FEEL LIKE A LOVE HAS ALWAYS REMAINED THIS TOUGH
TAKE ME APART AT THE SEAMS AND MAKE IT SO THAT I CAN LOVE ENDLESSLY
GRAB MY HEART CAUSE I GIVE IT TO YOU CAUSE ITS ONLY FOR YOU TO DO
WITH WHATEVER YOU MAY WANT OR WISH LIKE A STAR IN THE SEA
FOREVER GLISTENING FOR YOU AND ME
MAKE IT SO THAT I CAN GO THROUGH THIS PAIN
MAKE IT SO THAT I CAN DANCE IN THE RAIN
INSTEAD OF SULK IN THE CORNER WITH NO ONE TO PLEASE
HELP ME GET THROUGH THIS UNHOLY DISEASE
FOREVER I FEEL MY HEART CAN SWAY
BACK AND FORTH BETWEEN THE EDGES INSIDE
FOREVER BREAKING WHAT WAS ONCE ENTWINED
I FALL AND BREAK AWAY THE CHAINS THAT HAVE BOUND ME THUS
MY MEMORIES FADE FROM THE DAYS FROM WHENCE IT WAS
I FIND NOTHING TO HOLD ON TO ANYMORE
BUT SOMETHING COMES AROUND AND OPENS A DOOR
A NEW FACE, COURAGE TO FIGHT THE FATE THAT HAS BEFALLEN ON ME
A NEW PACE, LIFE TENDS TO THROW AWAY WHAT I WANTED TO SEE
AND I SAY, THAT I NEED SOMETHING OR SOMEONE TO MAKE THIS RIGHT
THE SAME PLACE, THAT BRINGS BACK EVERYTHING IN PLAIN SIGHT
I FIGHT AND FIGHT UNTIL THE PAINS FADES AWAY
BUT I SEE A FACE AND IN MY ENSUES A PLAY
A MEMORY THAT I THOUGHT WAS LONG GONE
BUT INSTEAD IT FINDS ITS WAY, I'M A PAWN
I FIND A TASK THAT FOLLOWS
THROUGH AND THROUGH IT SWALLOWS
BUT IT FAILS AT EVERY WRONG TURN I MAKE
AGAIN AND AGAIN I PROCRASTINATE
I FAIL AT THE HEART AND MIND
WHEN IT ACHES IT ALWAYS TENDS TO FIND
THE PAIN IT FOLLOWS ALL THE TIME
AND I FIND MYSELF IN AN ENDLESS RHYME
TRYING TO MAKE SENSE OF EVERYTHING
CONFUSION INSIDE WHEN I TRY TO FIND SOMETHING
WORTHY ENOUGH TO MAKE IT MY OWN
AGAIN I HEAR ANOTHER PHONE
RINGING AND RINGING I CAN'T FIND NO END
THE WORLD TRYING TO BE MY FRIEND
WHEN I NEED JUST ONE PERSON IN MY HEART
SOMEONE WHO KNOWS HOW TO NOT TAKE IT APART
I WANT A LOVE THAT CAN LAST FOREVER
SOMETHING TO MAKE ME FEEL LIGHT AS A FEATHER
MAKE MY MIND NOT HAVE TO WORRY
ABOUT THE THINGS THAT MAKE FEEL LIKE FLEA
SOMEONE TRYING EVER SO HARD
TO MAKE SOMETHING OUT OF NOTHING LIKE A HORRIBLE BARD
I FEEL LIKE I'M NOT EVEN WORTHY ENOUGH
I FEEL LIKE A LOVE HAS ALWAYS REMAINED THIS TOUGH
TAKE ME APART AT THE SEAMS AND MAKE IT SO THAT I CAN LOVE ENDLESSLY
GRAB MY HEART CAUSE I GIVE IT TO YOU CAUSE ITS ONLY FOR YOU TO DO
WITH WHATEVER YOU MAY WANT OR WISH LIKE A STAR IN THE SEA
FOREVER GLISTENING FOR YOU AND ME
MAKE IT SO THAT I CAN GO THROUGH THIS PAIN
MAKE IT SO THAT I CAN DANCE IN THE RAIN
INSTEAD OF SULK IN THE CORNER WITH NO ONE TO PLEASE
HELP ME GET THROUGH THIS UNHOLY DISEASE
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I decided to write this because I was looking through some of my old stuff and I found out through facebook that my ex got her dream to go to europe. Obviously, it hurt like crazy just talking to her but seeing her pictures and seeing her dream realized brought about so much pain i couldn't help but congratulate her and close the window. Then I thought about my current girlfriend. I love her to death and I know she knows that i would never go out with anyone else. I hate cheaters. She knows that. I want to get rid of this pain inside. It's not love, it's anguish at the fact that I can't get over the smallest things. It's a shame that I feel that I ever dated these people. I want nothing to do with them. I might need her smile, her laughter, her very heartfelt jokes to get through this. God knows, it makes me feel like I'm in heaven already lol