You leave me here

you leave me here
feeling alone and numb.
i told you i would stop cutting but i just cant, i promised you
but ive broke that promise like all yours.
i tell you im lucky to be alive
you tell me thats your choice.
you didnt fight with me over it,
you seemed like you didnt care.
you said you dont care,
i guess you proved it.
now because of you there is nothing left of me.
you tore what was left of my broken heart,
but you keep coming back for more.
what else can you tear up?
i have nothing left!
my body is numb and dead.
what more do you want?
you said get out of my life,
well your lucky because im half way there.
youre leaving me with nothing left.
why did you want to hurt me so badly?
why did you kill who i was?
so many questions left unanswered,
and thats how its forever going to be.
you said i ruined everything, even your life.
i never asked to be here and i DONT want to stay.
i want to cause you the pain that youve caused me,
how do i do that?
im ashamed of myself because...
i dont think i can.