Free-Falling

I’m falling asleep,
Free-falling to keep
The memories in my head,
So I can recall what you said.

I cried every night away,
Hoping you’d come back to stay.
My only friend was gone
But I wondered, for how long?

Forever seems like such a waste;
An eternity of sight, smell, and taste.
I’d kill myself with cyanide
Just so you’d know that I died.

But would you care or even cry
If it all turned into just a lie?
So I tend to free-fall,
Always waiting for your call.

Wait for a call that never comes.
Drown my fear in Coke and rum.
Get me out of this goddamn hell.
Your secret, I would never tell.

So go run back to him, you frail little girl.
Go hide away in your sheltered little world.
I’ll stay here, free-falling,
Always waiting, always stalling.