My Own Horrible Drum
My heart aches,
My boyfriend leaves,
My smiles fake,
My eyes don't see,
Only the words,
The words I write now,
Nothing is heard,
Nothing is found,
She wants to cheat,
He wants to too,
I feel total defeat,
Does he know which girl is who,
He loves me,
Or does he,
What does he feel,
Does he even want me,
I am crying alone,
In the darkest night,
My feelings never known,
By another's sight,
It leads me to this feeling,
To the feeling of hatred,
Hatred to myself reeling,
Growing in my head,
Everyone is happy,
A feeling I don't know anymore,
Is it like a day that is sunny,
Will I never know more,
I stress more,
I cry more,
I loathe more,
I die more,
I will never fit in,
I just fade into the backdrop,
No one notices not even my kin,
I am doing a belly flop,
I try to talk but out comes silence,
Goodbye Freedom,
Hello violence,
Now I beat to my own horrible drum.
My boyfriend leaves,
My smiles fake,
My eyes don't see,
Only the words,
The words I write now,
Nothing is heard,
Nothing is found,
She wants to cheat,
He wants to too,
I feel total defeat,
Does he know which girl is who,
He loves me,
Or does he,
What does he feel,
Does he even want me,
I am crying alone,
In the darkest night,
My feelings never known,
By another's sight,
It leads me to this feeling,
To the feeling of hatred,
Hatred to myself reeling,
Growing in my head,
Everyone is happy,
A feeling I don't know anymore,
Is it like a day that is sunny,
Will I never know more,
I stress more,
I cry more,
I loathe more,
I die more,
I will never fit in,
I just fade into the backdrop,
No one notices not even my kin,
I am doing a belly flop,
I try to talk but out comes silence,
Goodbye Freedom,
Hello violence,
Now I beat to my own horrible drum.