Jealousy

Running from everything around me,
building up walls of steel,
hiding my incessant jealousy,
counting breaths I can't feel.

The feeling is eating away at my soul,
I'm losing all forms of self-control,
my best friend's gone from my side,
she's done with being by my side.

Broken and torn,
lost and forlorn,
look at what I've become,
a monster for some.

Faking a smile or two,
crying for days and nights,
I'd do anything for you,
we used to be so tight.

You left me,
you promised to stay,
you said we could be anything we wanted to be,
you said I was meant to stay.

Now you have her and she has you,
happy memories for the both of you,
thrown away like an old forgotten toy,
left out in the rain and soil.