I found myself wondering...

I found myself wondering
And now I question why.
I wondered if we were meant to be
Or if I should say good-bye.

I found my myself wondering
why cared so much.
When you played your games
and I melted at your touch.

I found myself wondering
why I gave up so soon.
But now to your charming ways
I've learned to be immune.

I found myself wondering
what things would be like.
When eventually I realized
We're nothing close to alike.

I found myself wondering
what we could have been.
As I tried to make you care.
Again and again and again.

I found myself wondering
why I wanted you so.
When all I ever got from you
was a flat out cold no.

I found myself wondering
why I questioned you as friend.
When you can cheer me up
and make me laugh in the end.