The Decision

I sat there the whole night,
Pondering yet filled with fright,
Had I really become this person?

I'd thought I was better than this …
And in thinking so, trapped myself in a dark abyss,
One that brought me this terrible nightmare,
That confirmed a fear … that no one wanted to care.

I could not stop myself from pleading,
My heart was shattered and I was bleeding,
I watched the blood pool at my feet ,
Silent as my heart struggled to beat.
Fingers and walls tainted with red,
The room echoes with sounds of the dead,
Diseased with this plague,
Drowning yet the world seems so vague.

Suffocating yet refusing to believe,
That this was all I had achieved.
Wanting to runaway , I would do anything to leave.
What had I become? Who had I become?
I sat there till I finally had it all figured out,
I would change what I had done without a doubt.
I stood up … and walked towards the door.
Leaving my heart shattered and bloody on the floor.

Finally having decided … I would change,
No matter what I'm going to have to give up in exchange.