Summer

Summer.
For most, it means
Tans.
Sun.
Pools.
Bonfires.
Parties.
Drugs.
Friends.
Bathing suits.
Fun all around,
Specially made,
Just for you.

Summer.
For me, it means
Burns.
Night.
Drowning in self-hatred.
Burning down joint after joint.
Pretending to be loved enough to be invited to parties.
Drugs.
“Friends.”
Death.
Heartbreak all around,
Specially made,
Just by you.